In my last entry I wrote how I felt better after speaking to a priest about Brenda. Well that comfort was shattered when Brenda's brother, who was a few years ahead of us in school, called me up and bawled me out for contributing to her suicide. I didn't say anything during his whole rant and he used a lot of words that really offended me. I just let him finish and then quietly reiterated that I was sorry and had repented. I did try to get him to come to Jesus, but he just got more pissed off and hung up the phone. Grief does strange things to people; I don't remember Brenda's brother caring about her back in high school. Now he's her greatest protector. Ha. In any case, it made me sad. I feel like I should go back and consult the priest again. I've been trying to focus on other lost souls like fallen models but now all I can think about is Brenda again. I wish I had never done the people search in the first place. Now God is punishing me and I deserve it.

So I went back to the priest I confessed to about stealing the dress and told him about Brenda. It was really difficult but it helped to know that he wasn't judging me. Only God can judge me, but it still hurts inside to know that maybe something I did or said caused her to commit suicide. Kids are much more cruel than we think they are. In a way I kind of regret running that person search and finding out what had happened. What good is there in trying to find a person when that person is dead by her own hand? The priest really helped though. He gave me some prayers to say and told me that I shouldn't blame myself totally but try and send good messages to God for Brenda's soul. Suicide is a sin, you know. At home I've been distracting myself with sending good wishes to Sheyla Hershey, but I think that might be a sin too. It's tough for ex-cons to break ex-habits.

Wow, I'm still reeling from the revelation about Brenda.  On the hand, that inspires me.  I know how valuable the work I'm doing is, being able to connect with old souls to apologize.  Thank goodness for people finder!  On the other hand, I just haven't been able to bring myself to search people since I found out.  It makes my heart heavy, so I need absolution.  I can't even laugh at rants like this to stuff white people like.

I found Brenda.  She is dead.  Apparently, she committed suicide in high school.  Wow, that was a sobering discovery.  Did all of our teasing when we were younger contribute to her depression?  I'll never know for sure, but I'll always suspect that was probably the case - and now I have to live with that on my soul for the rest of my life.  I should have known that when I find a person, I should be prepared for some pretty heavy stuff, but I wasn't.  I had no idea.  However, this unfortunate discovery has only reconfirmed that I need to search for people while I can.  The only downside to having this skill is my friends want me to do much more petty tasks like background check contractors, which I suppose is important.  I'm taking these new One A Day vitamins that seem to be decreasing my stress level.

No luck finding Brenda so far.  Still, I can't help but feel that God himself is guiding my person search.  I've been a little distracted, because I've tried to find my cousins and find relative too.  But here's the best place to do a background check if that's what interests you.  Also, I have to wonder about all the medication we give kids these days.  Is it holy?  Is it right?  The mind reels.  Not just kids.  Adults too!  Like Phentremine overnight.    

Since I know how to find a person so well, I'm going to find Brenda.  Brenda was this girl in elementary school that I teased all the time from second grade through sixth.  It wasn't just me, but everyone called her fat and ugly and smelly and all kinds of terrible things.  It still makes me feel terrible to think about it, so I want to use people searches to track her down and apologize.  I owe it to her and God.  I haven't found her yet, but I'll let you know.  In the meantime, check out consumer advocate.

I got to tell you, staying firm in my faith has been difficult.  I can't tell you the number of times someone has cut me off on the freeway and I've wanted to scream at them--all the love of God!  Or when someone pushed me on the sidewalk and didn't even apologize, how I wanted them to have--nothing more than divine forgiveness!  Or when I've had a long day at work, then my mother calls to pester me to get a real job, I just wish she'd--find all the love, peace and acceptance I've found in my life.  Nothing new to report on the person search front.  I did have to go through a background check to keep this security guard job, though, which was fine, since the boss already knew about my past.  IN fact, I showed her a new people look up site, so she wouldn't have to fork over tons of money to those background check places. 

Returning that dress wasn't as easy as I thought it would be...as I walked in with it, the woman working there thought I was returning it, as in, for money. I was trying to play along so I wouldn't get caught again, and she kept trying to give me money for the dress or "at least store credit." So I finally had to come clean, told her what I did, about my history, about how I'm trying to turn a new leaf and how Allah has worked His power in my life--and I even offered to pay for the dress, even if it took me forever. Well she was really nice and not only didn't she press charges, she offered me a job! As a security guy--she decided a former thief would be the best person to watch over her dresses, and I gotta say, she's right. I already caught two more people trying to steal from her, though each time she didn't press charges. She's a very sweet lady! Anyway, I told her about how to find someone online, and I'm going to help her find her first sewing teacher. Working is pretty good, but I sit in a little security room and stare at cameras all day, which can be boring. She lets me use the computer so I can do some people searching online; I found this great thing on non work related activities to do at work, and now that I'm a working man, have to say it amused me greatly. But really...I love my new job. I really feel like life is moving in the right direction for me...at last!

So Oscar and Orla got hitched. Orla looked beautiful in her (stolen) dress. Its at the drycleaners now and I plan to return it to the department store, leave it in the dressing room! Atone for my sin and hopefully feel a lot better. As I told you I have been getting into people search, I am finding all the lost souls I befriended while in jail. Most are so happy to hear from me and so appreciative of the spiritual help I offer. We are all trying to help each other honest and out of jail.
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So, my friend Oscar and Orla have chosen a date for their wedding that I will be administering. Orla's dress is so beautiful. I stole it myself. Ok Ok! It's my last one. I promise. I already went to confessional and told the priest. You know, priest to priest. Yeah, my journey with God is going really well. I think I'm developing a really healthy relationship with him. My jouney of finding people is going well too. I'm finding a lot of people I wronged in the past, now I want to make it right. So many people's blogs and sites have helped me search for people. I've become a real people finder these days. If you keep checking back with my blog, then maybe you'll learn how to people search too! I gotta go get fitted for my tux!

So I told you how my best friend Oscar wants me to marry him and his fiancée Orla, right? He has also asked me to steal a wedding dress for Orla from a well known department store. Well here's the deal I meet Oscar pre jail time. We were bad! We'd go out and find people to steal from. We would search people 's homes for anything we thought we could make money from. My specialty was going in to high end department stores, finding people that worked there who were unsuspecting to help me find the perfect dress for my wife. Unbeknownst to them, they would run to the back to find the size I said I needed. Then I would take the dresses that were already out on the floor, detach the security tags and walk out of the store as if nothing ever happenend. That is my past though, and I paid my dues. I had four years to reflect on all I have done to strangers and worse to the people that I love the most. I cleaned myself up and am now a servant of God. It is now my purpose in life to make amends with those people I have harmed. I am on a mission to search for those people I have hurt and be of service to them. Finding people has now been my mission. Finding people is actually easier then I thought it was going to be. I typed in people search and a bunch of sites came up. I read a blog from this guy who was really helpful in directing me to the right sites: Person Search I also came across this site: PrivateEye.com - Find People with People Search. which is a great site because you can do background checks on people, criminal searches, and even to see if sexual offenders live in your neighborhood. Let me tell you if I was still a criminal these sites would be the enemy! I have to say though that I am so happy and I thank God everyday for my life and making the world a safer place. Blessings to all of you for visiting my site. And if you’re wondering about Oscar, I told him I would love to marry him, but I would not steal for him. I haven’t heard from him since that conversation, but God has a way of getting people back on track, and I have faith Oscar will find himself.

Hello world! My name is Haas and I am a recently ordained reverend. I got my certificate online. I got it because I want to clean up my life. I was in jail for four years for stealing dresses. I used to steal expensive designer dresses and then sell them online. I was busted and sentenced to four years of hard time. It was way brutual. But, I had a lot of time to think about things and myself. I really turned to the Lord while behind bars. He truly was my salvation. I pray to Allah that if I could make it out sane, then I would devote my life to his teachings. That's why I became an ordained minister. Now my best friend Oscar wants me to marry him and his fiance Orla. Can't wait. I'll keep you all updated. God Bless.